accidents in the previous broken phone to me last year found a certain distance of 67 sweet text messages

 Accidents in the previous broken phone to me last year found a certain distance of 67 sweet text messages, and 10 fell ill before the photos. Open the phone the moment, as if all the memories come alive instantly.

year, I seem to chaos through the centuries. Even the shadow like a lost person, lost all alone strong courage. But bit by bit to see these words, every word is used to the warmth.

now I realize, once we care so much about each other, love, do not know how to love. True to each other like two winter heating hedgehog.

now I realize, once, you said,UGGs, I love you. Who care so much about this simple sentence, through the pain and memories of those days now so shocking to me before.

you say: the girl who, I know you do not want to leave I was spoiled Fadia's.

say: You is not my lover, you are my wife

always say to you: Zhao well, you're a scoundrel, ignored me.

say to you: wife, just recharge my phone, and we fight it. Do not ignore me.

you say: my wife, I would like to accompany the fireworks.

you say: good is great, every day I find jokes to make me happy.

you say: You're like a child

say to you: for you every day I have to work so late, so hard, you have to listen.

say to you: my wife, your nest so warm and wanted to rest there.

You say: I am here for you, my wife, I would like you, Go home.

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you say: Well, I'm sick and so we married. You can only marry me, and not allowed to marry someone else.

You say: I love you, good.

However, I am here, but you leave, you're a liar!

you've gone crazy, like I want to leave here, because wherever all your breath, all about your memories, I have to talk about you almost every word they say good crazy. I do not know thoughts tortured me. I want to leave here and forget you. But forget you as if to cut off part of your body, like really painful, I can not. So in the end I left. Hold so many memories have slowly slowly live.

I have learned to calm a person learns their own quiet miss you. However, the emergence of these messages and pictures to bring my pains and excitement of the accident.

These days, I like the dust of the past, like old things are private religious ties into the inner corner, do not want to mention to anyone. When a person is always to listen to over and over again, Not pain, is the feeling. Like the song says: I want to control myself and not let who see me cry, pretend indifference to you, do not want to think of you, do not blame their own courage.

But now, I put a piece of open them, just like a child opening gift, sniffing familiar with your breath, find long lost sense of security. With all the memories of you always makes me feel not lonely.

Yes, I have not forgotten, I'm not a good memory, you know. But the mind of all memories are about you, clearly.

Yes, I have not forgotten, although I always want to admit, though I will not mention you in front of others, although I do not want to leave. But, you know, I'm talking to you every day. Today I want you to tell you, tell you happy today, I tell you I cried again today.

even fell down the day before yesterday I was a man whispered, Christine Leung, What a fool, you see, I fell.

I know you hear it, I know.

Yes, I have not forgotten.

I remember the first year junior high school, you're sitting in front of my left in English class, I draw sketches lying on the table, pass your note to me, let me lectures. At that time, we two are deputy squad leader, but always fight enemies.

I remember junior high school second grade, open parents, your mother did with my mother at a table, a waiter is also the day I see your mother think she is a good kind, like your mother.

I remember third grade junior high school English teaching reform course, we are Flagman, taking pictures, sitting in the front row tilted his head to squint your silly laugh, that picture in your family album, many years later I saw a child of you.

I remember junior high school fourth grade. We are streaming, I like the ladies at the same table you next class, I give her advice, but also call you brother. Prompting you saw me stare to his beard. Winter dinner we went to your house, you give me a hot drink alone, you stir, you say, good bad stomach, drink hot. I have forgotten my stomach, but you remember.

I recall high school grades, because you start in a different high school wrote to me, you talk about winter holiday party in your home, that I like the nonsense you like a child with her. I laughed, for my pranks. Since then, more up our letter, we gave each other nicknames from the eccentric to each other to give each other pleasure.

I remember, we tear off his diary to send to each other, you told me you found a class next door girl like me, you said you wanted to know her. I tell you, my good boys in the class, you call him younger siblings.

I remember sophomore that year, my birthday a few days before you go to our school, I have not seen you leave home, back to school to see the table at present, when the mood now still clearly remember: the little frame lying on a warm evening as a soft light room (now it's on the table in the house, which stood a picture of my younger brother.) Romantic frame is the cartoon style, a little bear holding a pink heart, the top he wrote You fool also attached a note to tell me not to misunderstand me, you said because it was really nice gift to find this election, we will always be best buddies. You're a fool.

I remember the end of High School there is a holiday weekend, we take a bus to school, met in the car, two silly people still pretend that I am sorry to speak like strangers to each other to see each other secretly. So little time. You are 19 years old, I was 18 years old.

I remember sophomore summer, you, late with the military, Ting sister, Liu Qiang, we in the reservoir behind the lunch inside the woods. What are you guys stupid kid caught a fish not caught the morning, taking it every frog had to bake, I told my sister not to eat, you tear the legs of a frog fertilizer gave me, so scared I fell to the ground. As if the cool summer wind blowing in my face now. That day I also collected a lot of little Chrysanthemum, and that clusters of yellow is beautiful.

I recall, the third year my parents divorced that year to the end, I'm so helpless that time, the day not in class with her to the court, scores declined. That winter, about the New Year, transcripts sent down, I did a terrible, think about the Chinese New Year is no place to go, that afternoon, suddenly feel the whole world black down. Went to the phone booth to call you, do not speak just kept Wozhuohuatong in here crying, it was the first cry to you.

I remember that day you fill other volunteer out in our school, told me that it take you to relax. I said I want to go to the beach. Then you close the phone, drove me to the Sanshandao harbor. Way to rain, I fell asleep in the car. Under a big beach day of rain, we hide under the umbrella, you accompany me to sit on the rocks. It was the first time I saw the rain at sea, a long time we do not speak. Day you kissed me.

I remember, and high summer, I work in a restaurant, in one night, you accompany me and help me clean up. Praised my lovely new clothes. That time I'm not a tomboy.

I remember, the school received a notice telling you I was going to Weifang. Hello, long time no speak, you want me to repeat. You say you do not want me to run away. Then we have not seen each other a long time.

I remember. I accepted a very good boy for me,bailey UGG boots, since you no longer contact me. You want me happy. At the time I hate you, Why do not my confession. And I look stupid is that people can not tell where love, loneliness experienced so much personal good will forget me.

I remember, I was a woman of infidelity, even with the boys together, I will think of you, give you written to, made a phone call, but you are always cold to me. At the time you take or do not want to lose, even as a friend.

I remember sophomore autumn night, you pass Weifang, drive me home. Delighted with the way my heart, always hope you can say. But no, you still like before, I was driving with a child's joke. Breach not to mention feelings. Then you tell me, when I was someone else's woman, you do not want to have other ideas yourself, you respect my choice. Fool, why do we always miss.

I remember. Junior winter because of the things the organization of work, I scolded my mother ran out. In looking at car to drive to the station, somehow you go to get on the bus in that direction. The way you made a very long text, you simply back: I pick you up. Then we separated for a long time in the future, in the winter on the open road met. You drove me to the past, we've been to the dam. When we are together always easy to talk like that. I like the feeling you're around, perhaps developed a habit since childhood, in front of you no disguise I always relax, because you can always see through my trick, it looks like you are smart man. Is the only way to know my smart man. Then you smiled at me and said, that evening you want to stay I stay here, but you give up, do not want to hold I can not be together.

I remember that period of time to work, I feel uneasy to send you information, you encourage me. Whenever I'm alone in a person's habit of when I think of you always, to contact you. Even if not there will be a faint sense of security. Because of work I told the boy parted. You do not say anything, just contact us slowly began to rise.

I remember, I work in March 2005, May we come to go together. To January 2007 you leave, we are really together for only a short span of 20 months.

I remember May day you drove me to the beach, that we have been to the beach. You say pretty good day, we sat at the beach for a long time on the beach no one, did not say anything, but it looks like sitting. I'm next to you on the shoulder and fell asleep. Then we write on the beach in the thin, you always love me more than writing, you write well more than the past, I was angry, write over and over again when you is the school nickname: little donkey, you laugh was chasing me. We did a drift bottles, each wrote a wish on a piece of paper, are not secretly see each other. You know, good writing is: I want to be together with certain distance. Now think about what a luxury it is a wish. But good to write you now do not know what the desire. Your desire to achieve it?

I remember, for your birthday in November I went to the selected gifts, a couple silver ring. Friends told me that a man like you want to buy a ring on the pillow silently make a wish, little girls practice, but I still do, just want to be with you again will do childish things.

I remember the night before your birthday I ask for leave to take the night train back from Weifang, and give you a surprise. You said I should buy a ring, you say this is a man to buy the things, I giggle with you, after certain distance to fill the platinum I bought you a good laugh is a silly woman. That morning you are called away to faraway friends, I stood in front of the room can be Lianlian watching you walk away, for the first time felt the heartache. First time I felt so want to leave you. The first time you hugged me as affectionate.

I remember the first time to your home, the day a lot of people at home, your family it looks like good, several aunts are good enthusiasm. Mom said I, when compared to the previous long junior high, the day my mother's birthday, her mother very happy. I'm nervous under the table holding your hand, your hand always so warm. It was my first time in years feel at home. I was thinking, I have a home, and home together with certain distance. Feeling of happiness I do not believe in myself.

I remember years ago that I would watch in the company, your mother and my mother had prepared a lot of food, prepared by your mother than my mother but also thoughtful and careful, you drive me to far away Weifang companies. That night, you live in the company, we were washing, I wore pink pajamas, you say I like a cute little bear. You squeeze the toothpaste so you are ready to wash, you suddenly had the feeling of home, you say you are happy with the good together. It looks like we have a warm embrace in the winter night with a smile.

I remember that New Year's Eve I am a person surfing in the office, do not suddenly not strong and happy, listening to the joy of firecrackers outside, wanton cry, you just hear my phone call horrendous cry. Liangzi, I really want a home, can a family have a peaceful year.

I remember the boy before I knew we two together threaten to hurt you, I want mad, I tell him, if you promise not to hurt certain distance, not difficult for his family, and I willing to work with him separately. He called to say I will be punished. Christine Leung, today you left me, is not retribution I did something wrong? But with you, is I think I most of the things in this life. I was wrong is that you do not know from the start, just like you. I did not tell you what he said because I have been worried that you care about my past, you will care about other men struggle for me.

I remember, that the Spring Festival, because not out of the first month, many taxi Dubu out, the world is so much snow, I hitchhiked to Xia Qiu, the Snow Road and then come so far to find a rental car, because the snow is too deep, usually 10 minutes to go the whole way to 1 hour. How I eager to see you, because we had a fight the night before, You say you want to think it over our relationship, how I fear, fear of losing you. So, a girl, a girl is not homeless and is carrying a stack early 5 foot shallow one foot deep things go your home. Mom and Dad I'm glad I went, but you still keep a straight face, you always kind of like that bully me. But that evening I went to your house, the capitalists of an uncle drank too much wine, I saw the door had just pulled my clothes, you had to get angry, you say: Do not touch her! Pushed the elders. You tell me do not allow anyone to insult me to bully me, although you are always left out of habit I am, I know, in fact, is the kind of care I am certain distance.

I remember you once told me, your mother told you: a woman talking to a man together, it means that she gave her heart to rely on the man, the man was going to take care of her love her, do not let her hurt. Unfortunately, the child is good by too much suffering, there are like family, so she need more people hurt, you have to take care of her, do not always bullied her about her anger. Your mother is a housewife did not attend school, but she said these words with you, hear you tell me when I cried. I tell you, brother, in the future we must make love mom. But now, I do not dare go to her mother. I was not very bad faith?

I remember, you are so busy with me one day, or smoked Laiyang office mobility. We take the bus to the Laiyang the way, I am on your shoulders, looked out the window on the sky, as happy as the birds chattering non-stop talking to you, you say I look like a child. We guess the clouds like, stop laughing. Now every time I go on a trip when a man I like looking at the sky, I think of that short trip, we laugh. Think am on your shoulders travel. Day in Laiyang, we were sitting in the warm afternoon sun waiting for people to work, as newly married as husband and wife think I'm going to transfer back to your right side, we can hold people together, and I feel like to fly same. You also told me personally that day, well, with you I changed a lot, you make me change, I like your change, I like us. If you never small, but every time I would seriously talk heart. Now I can still remember the afternoon that you sat on the couch, the sun shone through the glass, your smile, full of my world. You wait outside the room that day, I was inside the room with the president to mobilize about things. President of my ability is very appreciated, and we talked for a long time. Out when I saw you at the door do not worry, I'm delighted to tell you to jump to mobilize successful, but pretend you are not happy indifference. In fact, I know how happy your heart. The streets of a strange city in that you embrace me, you tell me you're happy. Think about these, these United States is also a good time, what can I not strong, so real you have by my side. I remember, March 8, 2006 day of my birthday, it is difficult to forget the day. That stupid little secret of the package was also good, the body only one not playing mobile phone. Squatting on the roadside waiting for you silly with Liu Jun to meet me. It was cold, raining, but I was not afraid. You have come here I can laugh silly. Night with control sister, Xiao Meng two pairs also Liu Jun, Sun Sister our dinner, the hotel even made me a lovely Teddy Bear dolls, although small, but well liked, and now lying in my bed. That is one of my most precious gift. I am more than happy that day, ah, you sat by my side,Discount UGG boots, we are secretly holding hands under the table. We two tubes sister They also let us drink downtown wedlock, we shy as a child. My birthday this year, a man before. Without you no friends, no birthday cake, no gifts. Just a cry for people who hold a quilt one day. The birthday of the year after next year's birthday where I will be? Not your life, no longer of any great and memorable holiday.

I remember the day I transferred back to the Laizhou, Weifang, you drive to pick me up. With the tube holding the crying sister Xiaomeng give up takes a long time between them. The way you held my hand to comfort me: after the show you come back to see them. Now every time he returns to find tubes sister Weifang they play, all my car to a person a person back. Do you remember the tube sister heard the news I am pleased to be pregnant cry, you laugh when I fool it? Tube baby sister now have teeth, and Xiaomeng engaged. Sun sister also married. Good home and you put away. Good home is your love.

I remember, at home, Mom and Dad will always be stopping by at night to go out after supper, in order that we be alone together. I always like in my parents room watching TV is not going to bed early, in the next room you give me a message: his wife, felt a sense. Who would have thought you would normally do a serious macho in front of you will also take this cute like a baby. Is not around, you always say: rest assured, you're not around I will abide by the Women's. Like a cute little daughter. The only sweet we know you remember?

I remember that time had just transferred back to the Laizhou, do not go to work every day, I'll come running to you all day with you, sitting there with you. Not too much, is tired of two people together. We are two people like this does not always fight when met, but met too good to be inseparable, is not all lovers are like this. Those days were the happiest days of good, finally can stay together. We stay in the shop during the day and at night you take me home to eat my mother cooked dinner, savory, and occasionally a good cook fried dishes you always eat the clean, but also to his mother, has done a good meal is ready. Sometimes I stay home with my mother, my mother took me to grandma house to my aunt, my mother when my own children, I finally have had a home. Meici 站在院子里 pick up their clothes, when her mother every time I stand at the door when you come back each time before the family dinner table when dinner each night with Mom or you go to a walk, I are not as confident, can not believe it happened to me these are the well-being. I could not believe such a peace loving people living in the side, together with his bits of life experience and common emotions.

I remember, one evening, you drive me Dazeshan, and we stood side reservoir, I hold you from behind, face against the back of your generous, as that evening's Choi Ha United States, the orange sunset light everything like in a dream. I remember a summer night, we went for a walk, you took my hand, we turn to each other jokes, I joke you can always pretend not to laugh, and fool, I always smile to Chaqi. We sat watching the future stars in the sky saying, you hold me tender, also joked that the future we want to give birth to a beautiful daughter. I even gave her a good name to the stream.

I remember, in order to introduce our company to your friends girl, you see us at night to the company, to eat, I give you the habit of peeling shrimp to eat, we all laugh at me a little obedient wife, but you triumphant smile, said I was a good wife.

I remember, on August 15 I can not go home, you get a lot of my mother's gift to, but also bought into the company to see me eat.

I remember arguing with my heat, so busy you go to the supermarket to buy a mat sent me, and now it spread on my bed. Remind me every day of your existence.

I remember you always have got sick of bad temper, and I do not know, or quarrel with you, blame you ignore me, blame your temper. Day in the store, that bothers you walked in the room, I still screw around with child temperament to let you go to buy me ice cream, it looks like you still fail to beat the tired me out so far to buy ice cream to me, when ice cream his mouth when you smile I was so helpless. Two people together, you spoil me like a pet a child, but, then, no one will like you spoil me.

I remember that day you rest we buy things in the restaurant, you idle against the chair amused smile in your eyes, tell me: well, with you often feel very happy, feeling good. I laugh like a fool laugh ah, ah, I want to go on your happiness because I am.

I remember that night I lost a couple of our rings, panic of looking for a long time, crying and calling you to tell you the ring was lost. A few days later you're hurt.

I remember that day back to the hospital to check the car in different directions we take back to their units. You rarely take the bus sitting there all alone, sitting in my car opposite. When the car moves when you waved at me, his eyes kept looking at me. Separated from each previous time you will not be so sad, you always turned the man left. But this time I clearly feel the difference in your sadness, then you are not already feeling we are about to face the parting of life and death, although the hospital was not the test results gastritis later brain cancer.

I remember, October 27, 2006, the day is not any sign, it is usual in the morning. However, I received a Han Guibin phone, he told me you were sick, and now in the hospital. I said, Han Guibin you do not joke like that, do not take a joke my husband's body, I would angrily. He hung up the phone, I do not believe his words, the doctor said you only gastritis Ah, how do hospital. But still hard to dial down your telephone call, is your uncle, he told me that you in the hospital.

I remember the way in the hospital, I've been telling myself that, not really, just kidding, just kidding. However, no matter how much I do not want to believe in the hospital I saw Han Guibin the door, he told me that your brain tumor. Then I saw the weeping aunts and see the sadness of the father and mother, you see the pain and suffering of sick ,,,,,,

from you I have never in front of you tear flow, Whether conscious or unconscious you, I do not want you to see me cry, you said that you hated a good cry? But every night you fall asleep, and I leaned against the bed do not know how long cry, sleep those days I do not know do not know do not know to eat drink, that is the way and refused to leave the guard at your side, all of these torture nothing, you know the most torture is? Watch as the pain you are suffering day by day but what I can for you to share, I hate myself, how I fear they will lose you in a moment.

06 年 10 27 to January 27, 2007 a full three months. All memory of this period is a nightmare for me, I always want to wake you'll come back.

liangzi,cheap UGG boots, I miss you. I can only tell myself I miss you, did not dare tell anyone. People would think I was crazy incomprehensible. This makes me miss heavy sense of security so that no home is not a love I can spend time with a sense of security. I miss you, miss you calling me fat wife, girl movie, bad good, miss your laugh, miss you mad at me when deliberately nasty expression, miss your warm embrace firmly, miss your big hands, missed together all the time.

I tried to accept people who do not hate to start a normal new life. Simple-minded, but always failed, no one will like you simple-minded, ugly like me a bad temper. Every time I see a man like a tired pedestrians finally found a tree and wanted to rely on what stop to rest. However, not every tree will always find all you can rely on. Only you know, I'm a need a lot of love, is not very easy to secure people is once like to find themselves. Only you know how vulnerable I was, as long as I rely on the individual, full of thinking about will be very happy.

good now abandoned those efforts, not a man to get along with other then such a person to go down too well, do not let my past heavy for someone else's experience. There are so many memories about you, the future will always be strong and go on a good day, not cry no injuries no longer hope.

work became my all, and thus enrich the simple living, life will go on the flat light. You'll make me happy is not it?

Yes, the days of the plain before, eat, sleep, work. Do not meet strangers, do not return to her mother there, do not have any chores to manage only their own heart too quiet day. I will be strong, I will be strong, I will be happy, simply happy, happy. Certain distance, you will protect me, right?

I have to control myself and not let who see me cry, pretend indifference to you, do not want to think of you, do not blame their own courage. Sad could not breathe, can not find your traces, watched you, but could do nothing and let you disappear in the end of the world, can not find a strong reason, no longer feel your gentle, told me the stars in which the first, if there are any end. Sad could not breathe, can not find traces of yesterday, watched but you can not, either you disappear in the end of the world, can not find a strong reason, no longer feel your gentle, told me that the stars in the Which head, there is an end to a star a wish to let you know I love you.